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where am i now?

this blog is closed. :D
goodluck :D

goodbye.

AND HELLO !

haha lucky you!

we've talk
we've laugh
we've played our own games.
the words we've said
we've chat for days.
and now your gone
its now a maze.
i got lost and stuck
not having a last luck.
then i,kept walking
paranoid by the voices in my head talking
lead me no where
its like a fucking nightmare.
for days and days
my mind kept asking
should i move on or continue dreaming.
ive made my choice
and i move on
not noticing the days you;ve been gone.
i swear it hurts somehow inside
i have no choice but to fight
tho this not yet leave any scars
on my heart,i bleed to death
but theres still no marks.

gun goes *bang bang bang
here i fall on the ground to die
with nothing much left to say
all i can say was goodbye.

i meet this guy
during the school holidays
he was really nice
in so many ways.
and so we know each other
his name was so sweet
we talk and walk together
and soon i realize it
im starting to like him.
at the end of the day
i had to leave
tho i feel hard too
seeing him smile make me relief.
somehow i got ways
ways to find him again
it wasnt good enough
and so i got his number.
i acted as if a friend
wanna call him out
lucky he dont know;
i like him,himself
we text whole day and night
i just couldnt control myself.
soon later i know him well
and then my heart started to fell
knowing the truth that;
he likes someone else.
its more to admiring
it wasnt really "like"
but i know my chances are not growing
out i went with my bike.
cycling around the playground
sitting on the swings
like my heart had been played
when we're not even starting.
i dont know if i should tell
for him on how i felt
my confidence got me down
got me emo-ing around.
tho i haven tell you how i feel
but i know deep down inside im always rejected
soon as days pass by
i feel so neglected
not texting everyday,
make me feel your pushing me away.
i had no choice, its time for me to move on,
i know my feelings for you wouldnt easily fade,
i really had no choice,
but to cut myself with a blade.
after all the times
laughing together,making meeting plans
then, after all,
this IS how the game ends.

this thing got me tru it tough
and i feel like a loser now
wasnt i good enough ?
dreams dont just come true

am i not the one ?
or am i just not a good choice of lover ?
am i too... undesribedable
thats how the games over ?

they thought all this
would make me go crying
your wrong,i wouldnt
but somehow i feel like dying

c'mon give me a break
cut me some slack
have a kitkat
dont give my head a crack.

i had no choice,
i had to move on
it aint that easy
i wish i was never born.
tho it took me days to forget
but im sure i will never regret.
alone again i am most
not remembering where i went lost.

its hurts,the pain
for all you tried to gain
with all the aiming darts
with all scars left on your heart.
feel almost like ive had it all along
thanks for listening,this is all wrong?