pocket full of lies

sis just told me everything yesterday night ==

my class teacher said

i am lazy, i dont do homeworks
i dint do addmaths cause i wanna drop addmaths
i always change my place when teacher changed me to the most front seat
i run around alot (don know when ==)
im naughty cause i don listen to what teacher says
ive been in counciling for many times
im very quiet in class,i dont talk much with people
i sleep hell alot ! till my record books are filled with my name :D
lastly, she said that she doesnt wanna talk about my bad behaviour but othr teacher force her too.


hoho bull shit. just covering your ass right ?
afraid that you might find your car at the dumpster ? :P

randommm

DANIEL O;

BERNARD O;

this is my friend name Joyce Gan Ser May =3

ZHI ! WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU LEG ?

HAHAHAHHAHAHA

im awesome

everybody in school thought i chop of my long hair== which i dint and never ever will :D
tho got caugh by dicipline teacher but shes minding her own business and me minding my own :D
i love my hair. its so cool :D often get praised by people O: its cool la what to do.

bob cut O:

gid says i look like an anime char here O_O

which made him stare at it for long O_O

taadaa! :D so cuteee

(the pictures on top arent fake ones. its not a hair extension either.its my own real hair O:

i dont dig with stuffs that make you look better,i was born pretty and kool already :D)

Bon-Odori

I WAN A YUKATAAAAAAAA D; or kimono hehe.

my mom said i was crazy for getting one. BUT I WANT 1 T_T i wanna wear it to bon-odori eh.

1 yukata set = RM400 mini-diu-nia-seng-mum GG.COM

btw, Bon-odori is on July 7 or 12 or 17 or 18. hoho see you there =3

OWNED

conference day was today,not last friday ==

i dint go HAHAHA i couldnt wake up so yeah. my dad went to school with my younger sis
hoho. as expected what my teacher would brag about me
ill take it as a compliment O:
thank you teacher :D

(i dint get screwed by my dad;cause,like i said.never once the teacher will not talk about me sleeping in class.oh well :D )

sorry for my stones today ==
i know i stoned like fuckkkk.
i dint talk,i dint even bother what people aroundme are talking
it took me sometime to think the answers out when theres a question
sorry if i look like i have seen something. maybe i did ?
sorry for depressions infront of everyone.
sorry for stonning la ok ==
i cant think,i wasnt thinking at all. i just... ==
aaa,screw life la

RAWR

OH THIS IS BULLSHIT OKAY.







and yet i still miss you.

ftw ? screw life.

GUESS WHOSE BACK ?

Play this vid before you read this post.


IVE GOT SOMETHING TO ASK YOU GUYS ! I FORGOT BOUT THIS

did any of you readers felt a EARTHQUAKE on Friday night ??? bout 7-8-9pm ??
DID YOU DID YOU DID YOU ?

I DID ! I SWEAR TO GOD ITS FUCKING A HUGE EARTHQUAKE AND IT HITTED KLIA too KLANG. HOHO

serious shit ==

you know why got earthquake?


eminem - without me
Guess whos back,
back again
BERNARD's back,
tell a friend
Guess who's back,
guess who's back,
guess who's back,
Guess who's back...

WELCOME BACK TO MALAYSIA BERNARD CHIN!

=3
yeah this lame bastard is back O: miss his lameass-jokes
im happy his back too hoho
as Mummy Karen goddaughter, am not afraid to say that
YES, I SAYANG YOU BIGG ASS BROTHER,BERNARD O;

if your wondering when i became so lame, EVER SINCE HE CAME BACK O;

bernard : ask me ask me ! ask me how lame is it ! ASK ME
me : fine, how lame is it ?
bernard : DAMMMMMMMM LAAAAMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <=O

Orang Kau Unik ==

hang out on friday nght :D i forgot where so dont ask ==
saturday night, overnight at zhi's place. we played this game..
its a drinking game actually,need alcohol but we dont have TT
so we use water HAHAHAHA
that game is bullshit okay. keep drinking water nonstop! tank full ==
and zhi's cups are VERY THE HUGE AAAHH. drink till GG.COM
we played till 3am den aby and kooi went back O:

sunday, woke up :D followed bea back to her house since BERNARD CHIN MISSES ME ;D
wanted to watch Transformers but, chipettttt! no ticket!
so we end up kat aeon. at the same time, And1 3on3 held at aeon carpark =3 dint play this year.
pergi dragon-i makan with nerd,mich,zhi :D
went amazon and bump to joseph O: play play play play play den sian den go drive-tru Mcd for Mcflurry :D
den go family dinner with bea's whole family :D
den later go joseph place to lepak hoho
den now home ==

blehh.

Rest in Peace King of POP

R.I.P.

In loving memory of

Michael Jackson

1958 - 2009

King of Pop, a Legenda.

awkward

awkward aint it, hanging out with a friend that you hardly know and see him.
you only know their glamour name,age and school and nothing else.
you dont even have his contact number and starts hanging out suddenly ==

yes, a hangout with jonathan at aeon all of a sudden is quite awkward ( after yinzhi mentioned it)
very awkward. i only see him 3 times a month cause he sometimes follow my bus back home
so i hardly see him, i hardly talk to him, we dont know each other well but den all of a sudden yesterday,

me : nobody home ? no tuition at all ?
jon : nope, you ?
me : same here, den whose gonna cook lunch for you
jon : nobody la. dont eat.. you
me : same. hmm, wan go aeon or not ? go there eat la since you dont eat at home and you temp me with your box, want or not ?
jon : anything la
me : == yes or no la
jon : anything anything
me : i dont care you go. later uncle drop me at my place den you come down den walk together
jon : okeh okeh.
me : shehsss.

so we went aeon, lepak kat mcd, makan minum talk cock and he walk me home first den later he walk back. (offered him my bike but he dont wan ==)
weird ae ?

hmm, today oso lepak at aeon, with zhi. forawhile only den go back.blablabla

cool mom after all

you know, old people are really.. religious,blablabla as the generation now is really bad and old people doesnt like this and that this that or whatever their child are doing is wrong.
example, cursing around;lepaking;blablabla think about it.
my mom was those old fashioned type. she doesnt curse nor swear and she actually scolded me for using vulgur words when i was young(bout 13 yrs old) LOL
ang i guess now its too normal for ppl t curse. 5 yrd old kid could curse people who are olden then them, so what the hell difference does it made, right?
my mom ws really random tho. sheve changed alot this year. shes much more open now,not that strct anymore BUT i dont disobey them badly. i still respect them as their my parents but my younger sis, shes a mess. she doesnt learn how to talk properly to her own mother and father, almost slapped my sis for having no respect at all.(i will someday..hmm)
so anyway, continue-ing. my mom changed alot O_O she could swear infront of me which is a pretty shock to me cause i don swear infront of her neither.

mom : come on, my boss's a bitch, a bloody bitch
me : O_O wokehh?

*in the car hearing radio*
mom : if i were him, ill scold te 4 letter words
me : *turns to my mom and O__O*
mom : ill say F-U-C-K-U fuck u fuck u*laughs to herself*
me : *O__________O* EXCUSE ME??? What the hell ?

dam random right ? i know ==

Drawing is my passion.

you guys do know i draws right ? i do. but i only can draw names and design :D
i kinda stopped drawing all these shit last year cause i was too depress == i couldnt draw anymoe cause my skills went *pooff* an so i stopped. but today in school, was really bored suddenly i have ideas or something and i started drawing =3 i only draw something when i have an idea and also when i got the mood.so, TAADAAA! ;D

love drawing lightnings so this is what i got O_O

azzat!nah,for you :D

and then,i got another idea O:
this is for you asyraf :D


i drew this the other day but i never have an idea to design it.

so random so i simply scribble == and came out this.

turns out nice to me :D

TADAAAA !

nice mou == i know it too simple. all of em but it actually look like from far away.seirously,try it (:

i also drew another 1 but that was for my friend.dint took a picture of it tho \:
btw, this is how i make money in school when i was form 2 :D ppl would pay me no matter how much just as long i draw their names :D but i dint draw for them cause i was too lazy and i have to come up with new ideas for every person and there are almost 10 person asking me to draw for them, so yeah.i dint. couldnt come out with anythihng else :D

imma post a picture of my table on the next post if possible. i layed afew of my drawings there which is cool. HEH

LUCKY STARS

i am so bored till im lifeless eh == so planned to watch some shows or something. borrowing some dvd's from friends :D cant wait to get em' this friday. hoho and ill have a drama marathon and anime too not to forget.

aaa. arent the girls in the picture cute ? =3

its an anime called LUCKY STARS (got it from asyraf eh)

i wouldnt say it suck. its actually very random and really cute :D SERIOUSLY

i love the girl with blue hair. she is SOOOO CUTEEEE and RANDOMM ;D

and realizing that...

me : *watches the show* WTFSO CUTE WEI OMG

me : WTF *burst out laughing* DAM CUTEE AAAAAA

me : *burst out laughing*

me : eh ? this blue hair girl...reminds me of someone.....

me : WTF. REMINDS ME OF.. ME ? DAM CUTE WEIII HAHAHAHA

== aaa,seriously. went crazy over it O: its too cuteeee! and its like, watching myself in anime ==

serious shit eh.

Blue hair girl = Helyna number 2 HAHAHAHAHA

oh well.

see what anime does to people ?

no wonder why many are addicted to anime. youll never stop watching after watching 1.

siao liao la ==

unbelieveble.

today school suck. had ceramah all day long == suprisingly, i sat with feteen and selina today in the hall,zhi is always and forever with me. we talked cock all day long and guess what ?
youknow the band bunkface ? yeah, they are from andalas klang,1 of the guy from bunkface (samsul) is a brother to SALEHA the malaysia model&actress and also brother to ROHANA who only 17 this year who studies in MGS ! yaya,same sch with me :DD::D
MY FIRST EVER MALAY BEST FRIEND HANGS OUT WITH BUNKFACE MAN. OMG.
I CANT BELIEVE. AND SHE DINT AJAK ME GOOOO OMGOMGOMG KILL HERR !!
i dint know till selina told me that feteen hangs out with bunkface,and feteen dint know i was crazy over bunkface. OMGGGGG. BUNKKKFACEEEE D;
anyway,she promised me that she'll bring me and selina out with her 1 day and lepak with bunkface HOHOHO O; CANT WAIT !
so anyway, we catch up things with each other.knowing hows everybody life is and BUNKFACEEE OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGGGGG *faints*

blablabla. at home ady, waiting for kawan utk bawa saya gi makan == lapar doh.

mom and dad is at home O; dint go work. cause SAMI or SUAMI or smething MI is coming over.
his a guy from india,something to do with god and all,i dont know. my aunt know him from her yoga teacher where my parents and aunts go for yoga. it seems this SIFU\SUAMI\SAMI is the SIFU to their yoga teacher O: so yeah he came over.i dint really care so i went up my sis room and go online and den

mom : CHIEE !
me : COMINGGG !
mom : go and bath, go go faster. go do blessing..SUAMI\SAMI gtg back ady
me : can i not do ==
mom : GOOO
me : OK OK OK OK GOING GOING CHILLLLL!

so bath and everything den go next door(which is my aunt's house too)
blablabla. SAMI\SUAMI\SIFU came down stairs. like god only wei O_O
he came down and my mom ask him to do blessings for me.
he looked at me 1 kind. he could tell how am i O_O

mom : this my daughter
aunt : youve seen her before at the old house remember ?
GOD : oh yes yes yes
mom : *something blessing her*
GOD : oh oh oh.
mom : she very naughty 1. she got brain problem. when shes not happy,*acts like shes cutting herself on the wrist with blade* she cut herself
me : *talks to myownself* MOM...HOW COULD YOU TELLLL OMGGG.
aunt : cannot like that 1..anything dontkeep inside...must tell out
GOD : HUH ?cut herself ar ?
mom : *walks to me and show him my scars* yeah see
GOD : *stares at me*
mom : she got brain problem 1
GOD : no no, no problem no problem.. she... think much
aunt : think to much
GOD : yaaa.... she wan freedom.. give her abit freedom
mom : HAH ? GIVE HER FREEDOM MORE ? i give her too much freedom already. everytime go out "BYE*WALKS OUTS" wan.. too much freedom already
GOD : *smiling* ahhh .....

so yeah. goodness gracious ! my mom told out that i cut myself.i am dam depress now you know..how could my mom tell everyone WHEN I DONT WANT ANYONE(especially my family) TO KNOW O_O HAIH. GEEGEE.COM

so yeah, GOD blessed me. i dont actually believe in this stuffs.. the last time he came,he blessed me. he put a pinch of powder on my palm and den touch my head and start blessing me and that time, it doesnt hurt at all. nothing at all ! like normal only la. BUT NOW, HOHOHO
he did the same but this time when i close my hand into a fist as the powder is on my palm, i can feel my hand burning as he touches and mumble some words. it seriously burn O_O ouch.
and i told my dad that it burns,my dad said maybe because its powerful...but i dont believe in all this you see == after everyting done, i went back to my room and play with the laptop(now) i feel that my body is burning..cooling in a way which is dam...WEIRD... and im starting to believe in that now O_O oh well

GOD : next time.. no cutter self ar...
me : oh ok ok

GOD KNOWS

got this from asyraf. good story line, good songs, awesome anime.

the melancholy of suzumiya haruhi - god knows



kawaita kokoro de kakenukeru
gomen ne nani mo dekinakute
itami wo wakachiau koto sae
anata wa yurushite kurenai

muku ni ikiru tame ni furimukazu
senaka mukete satteshimau
on the lonely rail

watashi tsuiteiku yo
donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
kitto anata wa kagayaite
koeru mirai no hate
yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
my way kasanaru yo
ima futari ni God bless...

todokete atsuku naru omoi wa
genjitsu tokashite samayou
aitai kimochi ni riyuu wa nai
anata e afuredasu Lovin' you

semete utsukushii yume dake wo
egakinagara oikakeyou
for your lonely heart


yamete uso wa anata rashikunai yo
me wo mite kore kara no koto wo hanasou
watashi kakugo shiteru
kurai mirai datte
tsuyoku natte unmei kaerareru kamo ne
my wish kanaetai noni
subete wa God knows...

anata ga ite watashi ga ite
hoka no hito wa kieteshimatta
awai yume no utsukushisa wo egakinagara
kizuato nazoru

dakara watashi tsuiteiku yo
donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
kitto anata wa kagayaite
koeru mirai no hate
yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
my way kasanaru yo
ima futari ni God bless...

maple sensation

ive not been online much lately causei was busy mapling :X
addictive okeh. hoho.
school sucks. report card day is on this friday ;D
im not worried about it cause i know what teacher is gonna say.i could even planned and imagine whatever shes gonna say..

mom&dad : yes,sszechie
teacher : oh.szechie parents ? okeh.your daughter...tsktsktsk..sangat malas
mom&dad : ye
teacher : selalu xbuat kerja skola
mom&dad : ye
teacher : slalu xdtg skola tapi skrang dah kurang ponteng
mom&dad : ye
teacher : xbising la.diam saje. tapi ngan yinzhi dia bising
mom&dad : ye,lagi ?
teacher : gaduh ngan addmaths teacher,complain bout her kat HEM
mom&dad : oh,dia dah britahu kami.
teacher : oh..hmmm..results okay la. tapi mesti blaja rajin lagi.jgn malas sgt
mom&dad : hmm..okay
teacher : oh oh ! dan last skali, dia selalu tido dalam kelas.cikgu masuk pun tido. selalu tido. cikgu byk complain dia tido dlm kelas masa dorang ajar
mom&dad : oh. i know already. know until bored already. xskali pon dgr guru xcomplen palsa dia tido..


oh well, there, i wrote the conversation of parents and teacher. i bet shes gonna say all this ==

screw school. buhbye.

killed.

honestly speaking, i just couldnt seem to stop. i just cant, it feels like im already attach to it till i dont know what to do. eventhough im far away but the thing is, its still the same
i dont know why and i seriously couldnt get it off my mind.

Every step i take
Every move i make
Every single day
Every night im awake
ill be missing you.

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every where your there
I'll be missing you.

Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace.
I dream at night, I can only see your face.
I look around but it's you I can't replace.
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep calling baby, baby please..................

REMIX.
SERIAL MURDERER.

midnight ghost.

aftr school, planned and go to lasalle school to have lunch! matdiu teman us in.hoho
lepak around till 2 den sit public bus to aeon with bunch of people more.
lepak at mcd then matdiu had to leave,so the rest accompany us.
later, they went for movie, me and zhi sat at mcd till 430 while talking cock with jonathan.

walked back, lepak at my place till night den zhi went back.
bout 9 something, bea and zhi surprisingly on the phone,

bea : SIAO EH. OPEN THE GATE !
me : huh ? what gate?
bea : your house la
me : wtf? what the fuck are you doing at my house
bea : don wan me here is it ? fine..i go back
me : eh no la no la,coming coming HEHE

den, bea followed her mom to aeon and den later me and zhi walked to aeon.as usual,talked cock with mummy karen :D later that, begged mummy karen so bea could stay at my place ;D
later that, fetch us back to my place with mummy karen's permission.
all my aunt was outside my house,so is myfamily too.
at the same time, yiong,aby,kooi,eseong,kong was at nearby padang waiting for us to reach home so they can pick us up.

SURPRISINGLY, they freaking stopped infront of my house,

zhi : eh yiong come ady
me : *looks* oh, and eseong
zhi : eh ?
me : wtf? and kong ?
*aby's car came pulak*
me : WTF ? AND ABY ALSO ? DEI WTF ? DIE LA DIE LA DIE LA.my aunt all here and they freaking drove 4 cars to my place just to pick us up. DIELAAAA. later kena lecture 99 wei DIEE.
zhi : die d la die d la...all 4 cars stop infront your house when your whole big family here.
me : EXACTLY..DIE LAAA. lucky kooi dint drive if not itll be 5 cars wei. i feel so rockstar-ish now hoho. deii, my aunt staring ady wei OMG. GEEGEE.COM


thats how i usually die la so now you know why la k.
went to joseph place AGAIN. to drink at the pondok in the middle of the lake.
den later went melur.kong was quite drunk\tipsy so they asked him lotsa stupid questions.
talking about virginity there *what a topic right ? kanneneh* it seems like eseong is the 1 whosedrunk, not kong LOL
went back bout 3, bea and zhi fall asleep on my bed while i was mapling in my sis room :D till 5.

saturday ,
bea and zhi went lunch with zhi's mom while i have lunch with my family.
funny how i usual hate BURGERKING cause i remember before i ate burger king and i dint like it. guess what ? HELL YEAH NOW I DO. its dam awesome weii, so much better den every burger there is outside man. fuuhh. HEAVEN NUMBER 2 !
went back home bout4 while bea and zhi waited for me kat aeon,so i also went aeon at 5 :D
lepak till mummy karen comes :D hoho
went back bout 9 and zhi followed her mom for dinner.
10, kooi came and picked me up from bea's place for another DRINKING SECTION;same time same place. im happy many came:D

kooi,aby,zhi,yiong,kong,eseong,deng,tzu,hann,khoon,hosheng,9phang,brian,gary,joseph and me :D

we dint play catching2 today but we laughed the heck out of us.
the lake water wasnt deep, and you can see the stones there. so kooi and tzu *smart asses*throw their slippers there,went and walk around the stones and HAHAHAHAHA KOOI SLIPPED DOWN and tzu pulled him up, tzu almost fall too XD DAM FUNNY. kooi and tzu was finding for their slipper XD and they couldnt find it but at last they did !
dam funny weiii.
so lepak3 till half group went back and left me zhi aby kong deng 9phang gary brian and jo.
bout 2 aby fetch zhi back and i feel like mamak-ing later so we went melur and called the others to come too. lepak till 3 and now im here blogging.

i felt my blog is so dead so i wanna crap more :D

charades

school was a bitch,teachers are bitchy too.
stupid teacher who doesnt teach me but knew my elder sister came to me,trying to questioned me till i have nothing to say but he failed.whatever he said,i say it back but with a word more. his a total bitch. he also caught the scars on my hand and he starts questioning me. " ini mesti counceling tau? " to dicipline teacher
GOD,ANOTHER COUNCELING PERIOD.MIGHT AS WELL JUST DIE RIGHT ?
but haven go for councel yet. (like they can dig everything out from me ==)

*walks in school late*
mr.teh : sze chie come here
me : *walks toward him with my "wtf you want" face* what ?

screw teacher's nostrils man. grrr.

school was bored! zhi left me alone AGAIN.
i dint mention this, new teacher played a game with us the other day, so she continue it the other day.

teacher : "im hot & sexy"
cass : SZECHIEE !!!
me : wtf ?not me la. khoo yin zhi la.

teacher : i love to sleep !
class : SZECHIE !!!
me : dei,wtf ? ITS NOT ME. SHE ALREADY CALLED MINE.

teacher : i love to sleep,im obsess with sleeping,i hate school works.
malay girl : pasti szechie.
class : what ? again ?
me : *stares at her* APE KO CAKAP ???
her : xdexde,bukan aku wei. dia yg ckp.
me : koteh la. tu bukan aku laa
malay girl : *laughs* sorry sorry
me : *talks to girl beside me* nabeh,realize or not, all something to do with sleeping all say me ==

teacher : okeh,this 1 need malay girl only know
malay girls : CIKGU ! SZECHIE !! dia pandai indon !
me : OIT,bile aku pandai indon ?
malay girls : *laughs* pandai pandai! cher call szechie!!
me : WEIII, NOOOOO! I DONT KNOWWW WEIII...

pekcekness. guess im too much of a rockstar till everyone loves saying me.
and also guess what ? im the bigest gossip there is in the staffs room.serious !
even teachers who teach me when i was form1 remembers me. THAT IS WHY I WANNA SHIFT SCHOOL,too many teachers know me.aiint fun anymore !

old teacher : kakak kamu sszechie kan ?
ynger sis : ye,cikgu kenal dia ke?
old teacher : KENAL KENAL..szechie sgt famous kat staff room!

wtf right ? tension doh. but mummy dont wanna change me to another school T_T HOWW...

1000 oceans

These tears I've cried
I've cried 1000 oceans
And if it seems
I'm floating in the darkness
I'm aware what the rules are
But you know that I will run
You know that I will follow you
Over silbury hill
Through the solar field
You know that I will follow you

And if I find you
Will you still remeber
Playing at trains
Or does this litte blue ball
Just fade away
Over silbury hill
Through the solar field
You know that I will follow you
I'm aware what the rules are
But you know that I will run
You know that I will follow you

bunkface - revolusi

aku keliru
menjadi buntu
arah yang ingin ku tuju

rasa resah ku
kian celaru
dengan ilham ku tempuh

aku cuma mahukan
bayangan resah ku akan hilang
tapi keadaan memaksa
menghadapi semua

OO.. OH OO..OH

C/O
Inikah revolusi
atau hanya ilusi
bagaikan mimipi jadi realiti

Rasional diriku
rasional dirimu
penentu masa
masa depan ku

adakah masa
menjadi punca
diriku dalam dilema

benarkah anjakkan paradigma
susuli ku terima

aku cuma mahukan
bayangan resah ku akan hilang
tapi keadaan memaksa
menghadapi semua

C/O dan C/O lagi..

CHOC FOUNDER.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JOSHUA SAYANNGGG !
sorry for the late wish ):
i miss you, hope your doing well !
talking bout this makes me think back the days when we first meet. hoho
and how we made CHOC up (: awesome clan with awesome people !
oh well, take care ! have fun. LOVE YOU SAYAANGGG !

history shit.

History ? OWNED !

-Nyatakan dua tokoh matematik Yunani yg tlh mgembngkn ilmu geometro Mesir Purba.
i) KHOO YIN ZHI
ii) CHIN YUEN XIN

-Siapakah ahli sains Yunani yg digelar sbg Bapa Perubatan?
Puan Seri HelynaSiew, YB Siew Sze Chie, YB.DATO HelynaSiew

oh well,i tried my best :\

CHAO NIA HAI LAA DIUUUUU. MOTHER FUCKING NET. FUCKING PISSING ME OFF WEI .......................................................................

silly boy !

english literature is a bitch :D imma scratch 9 her car if she cross the line.
school suck, i was loney the whole day. zhi dint go school cause she has cambrdge exam.
so yeah, only was awake on lit,ea and accounts period, the rest sleeping :D

teacher : okeh. skrang pjk, nak buat pe?
us : TIDOOOOO !!!
teacher : okok, semua tido
us : YAYYY !

teacher : eh ape ni ? kate nak tido, apesal sume bangun ? tido tido !
them : *smiles*
me : *sleeping already*

so yeah. pretty much boring.
after school, went aeon with lappy and zhi and jia and matdiu.
den to melur with ahyiong.
den back home. rawr.

maple fever !
imma maple back :D:D:D


imissyoumochomucho.

i feel like bitching.hmm

- im lazy
- im stuborn
- i need my hunkee
- imfat :D
- and ugly
- yet stupid
- and dumb
- i prefer fruits more than food
- i cant live a week without hanging out with friends
- i miss beatrice
- you too,zhi
- and also secondfamily
- im getting more spoiled
- till i dont really care of what im doing
- im still wondering when am i gonna kena gantung from school
- but i dont have dmerits much \:
- i hack in counterstrike
- thats a lie
- i love to lie ?
- stealing is one of my hobby :D (only if i found it laying there, so lonely)
- finders keeper,losest whipers.
- i regret living
- i want to die :D
- yes,i do like someone
- i listen to him play everynight so i could sleep
- no,thats not a lie ==
- its my personal lullaby now.
- i make school like my own house
- i always go school late
- last time i went to school bout 7 and reach bout 830 and then entered class at 9.
- i dont know what i did that whole time.

ive change alot, especially after today. i don feel like smiling anymore. i hate being friendly now.
i dont wanna fucking care of what people have to say.
i like what i do, i do what i like.theres no stopping me,amen.
i regret playing counterstrike, i regret playing it in garena. i now hate it when people talks bout me,even good ones.
i hate it before when people often talk bout a girl in garena who pawns assess in cs to the world and makes them wanna know me. no im not bragging bout it. im actually hating it.
i hate people in my school. feel like chocking them till they die. man im evul.

i hate everything now. maybe cause im just being very depress and moody lately.
boi, i hope this thing wont stay long cause i feel the other side of me is taking over.
im afraid i might change,oneday. and have lots of haters around me.

oh well. im a rockstar.
HATERS MAKE ME FAMOUS
see it, read it, now EAT IT.

SCHOOL SMHOOL.

i am really tired today ==
i slept through my school, well, few subjects only. addmaths,accounts,ea i was only awake while others i sleep.
i almost slap my class vise president for yelling beside my ears "BANGUNNN!"
kan nia neh. shes lucky i was aware of myself if not.. hoho. yit pa seh koh hee.
maybe cause i was seriously moody, i never smiled till last 2 periods.
my face was really >= till people dont dare to look at me before i stare cock them :D

blablabla.
just came back from asoka with yiong,kong,yongkian,eseong,aby and zhi.

say TAKNAK !

i must quit

i must quit

i must quit

i must quit

i must quit

i must quit

i must quit



HOW HOW HOW ?!?!?
I CANTTT. HOWWW ?
howww?
i must listen to zwen
i must listen to daniel
i must listen to ryan
i must listen to iwan
i must listen to azzat
i must listen to everyone else who i cant remember.
importantly, i must listen to myself.

blame my mom for borning me as a stoburn child.


AHHHHHH ! HELP ! ! ! ! ! ! those pictres doesnt affect me weih HOW?

wnrper ye mrote we,

redrum a me etorw eh again.
this time it stings. ouch.
i have no idea what to do now.
kill me straight, dont torture me til i die.
i dont want to feel this pain anymore okay,it hurts alot

SUNDAY - suicidal day

woke up bout 1 den went to bea's place den uhh.
bout 5 went bkttinggi snooker centre.
see them play whille i gt bored.

bout 8, went aeon cause kong wanna do his payment den later that went to my house nearby padang to lepak.
lepak till 10 den bea gtg bck to PJ. *missng her arleady*
den kooi and aby came den went melur lepak till 11. now here

DIEDIEDIE.
its a suicidal day cause tomorrow got school.NABEH.
DIEDIEDIE.
SCHOOLSCHOOLSCHOOL.

SATURDAY

FINALLY, THE 2 WEEKS OF HOLIDAY, MY FIRST TIME EVER WAKING UP AT 2PM IN THIS 2 FREAKING WEEK HOLIDAYS. FINALLYYY *thank god*

wake up of exhaution after running around like crazy cows HOHO
went back to my place to bath and get ready while janssen waited for us at aeon :D
from 4 till 5 whch means he waited for us 1 hour HAHA OPPSS
lepaked at mcd :D tallk till 7-8 den go back.

decide to have another drinking night :D
same time same place but this time, only kong kooi aby seong joseph zhi bea deng only. others dunno where:D
we dint start the bacardi that night so we startd to day. freaking nice.

bacardi lemon + salt + lemon = heaven.

wentback bout 3 cause we were having cup noodles at jjoseph place.
bea overnight my place and zhi POTONG STEAM.

waiting for the next drnking session cause chivas and bacardi haven fnish drinking and also the midori 1.

FRIDAY

at bea's plce ::D

went to asia at 11. kong picked us up, kooi aby zhi was in the car too.
lepaked at openair den lter go pool den open air den pool O_O and openair ?
khoon,yeonghann,tzu came :D
kong went to class so we waited till 430 den went back klang.
lepaked at bea's place awhile.
planned to have a drinking night :D

3 bottles of chivas, 2 bacardi lemon,1 midori melon. hoho
end up at Ambang Botanic lake to drink :D only place which is peace :D
joseph house there somo.hoho.

kong aby kooi seong zhi bea jon hosheng yeonghann hockmun and his gal,tzu khoon joseph
was there :D but they all dint drink ==

we finish up 2 bottles chivas.hoho
den later that 13 of us played catching2, mumandgal went back so leftus.
we played like,3 rounds. MADNESS. the lake was freaking huge weih. run lik hell. madness!
so we make it the round smaller and 3 catchers. it was freaking awesome !
seriously was ! and the lake go bridges and all, run up and down and got stuck in the middle.
dammmm funnnn mannnn D;

from 12 we played till 2. we can all die of astma man. the haze was really bad at the same time too. GEEEGEEE.

overnight at zhi's place.

THURSDAY

i forgt what i did the whole day ==
night, went mamak ABC bkttinggi. bout 9.
lepaked till 12 :D
engsiong,bea,kong,kooi,aby was there too.
we talked cock and lepak. brought yesterday's game along:D
was messin with everyone and it hell fun :D
overnight at bea's place later that.

randomm.

wednesday,

went to melur bout 10pm.
zhi kong wengsoon was there.

lepaked till 2am. talkign cock the whole 4 hours D;
i was being really random so i asked really random questions that made ourself laugh the heck out of us.
thenlater, we played a game, from A-Z say an animl or fruits or place and most madness, BOMBASTIC WORDS. GEGEEE.
laterthat, we played mind teasing games. cool ones. and also black magic.
ATLAST I KNOW HOW DOES BLACK MAGIC IS. gary kept messng our mind withthat. hoho
see whose messing with who now :P

bunkface rocks! situasi.

Diskriminasi menjatuhkan aku
Reputasi kini menjadi bisu
Dan aku, ku layu
Disitu

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
Itulah impian aku

C/O
Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah la, musnah impian
Tuk menggapai bintang
Terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
Engkaulah, destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku... oh oh oh...

Kerana diri ini tak daya lagi
Menempuh hidup yang ku temui
Dan aku, ku tunggu... oh oh oh
Disitu

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Itulah impian aku

ST 12 - puspa

hearing back this song, makes me think of me and shazuan lame days chatting till next morning. hoho.
dont know where is him now,oh well. best of luck bro ;)
missing you !

tagged by Wendyyy !

1. Which is your favorite color out of: red , black , blue , green , or yellow ?
- Black

2. Your first initial?
- H

3. Your month of birth?
- January

4. Which color do you like more, black or white?
- Black

5. Name of persons of the same sex as yours.
- YinZhi and Beat the rice with the chin !

6. Your favorite number?
- 6 7 10 17

7. Do you like Flying or Driving more?
- duhh. Flying

8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
- Lake.

9. Write down 15 wishes
- i want a green psp
- i want a transformer zippo lighter
- nikon DSRL
- beatrice chin
- khoo yin zhi
- 2nd family back.
- a ROCKSTAR !
- 2 freaking maids for my 3 story house(im lazy to do the house chores la) ==
- i can drive now :D
- oh wait,i can.i just need a car \:
- dad doesnt have cancer
- mom to have a better job

- LONG LIVE the Siew's (:
- see him play the piano everyday.

When you're done, scroll down. (Don't cheat!)
Answers

1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - You are conservative and aggressive
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue- You u are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down..

2. If your initial is:
A-K- You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.
L-R- You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z- You like to help others and your future love life looks very good..

3. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but the memories will last forever.

July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose:
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person is your best friend.

6 This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

7. If you chose:
Flying: You like adventure.
Driving: You are a laid back person.

8. If you chose:
Lake : You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

9. This wishes will come true only if you tag this to five people in one hour.
Tag it to ten people, and it will come true before your next birthday

- this

- is

- crap

- wei

- oh well.

- zwen

- asyraf

- bea

- byn

- AZZAT !

suckaz.

dare not say whose that. oh well.

-@yahoo.com says:
*but
*huh
*i need you
biarkan waktu hapus aku - says:
*for ?
-@yahoo.com says:
*=.=
*lolz
biarkan waktu hapus aku - says:
*aaa.. ???
-@yahoo.com says:
*for my life
*=.=
biarkan waktu hapus aku - says:
*awesome.
*you already calling me jie. you have me now.




biarkan waktu hapus aku - says:
*??
*ok
-@yahoo.com says:
*something wrong with my head ..
*i'm in love
*with my emo jie @@
biarkan waktu hapus aku - says:
*O_O
*you okat or not ?
-@yahoo.com says:
*as what i said
*i'm in love @@



-@yahoo.com says:
*i know
*i'm in love
*but
*what can i do
*you dont understand me
biarkan waktu hapus aku - says:
*... i have no idea what you talking

fuck you. __

BAGUA !

previous conversation.

after receiving news my dad had cancer. blablabla. we were at bea's place.
so went back bout 2am.
vinkong was sitting in front, wengsoon was driving. me bea zhi at the back seat.

on the way to fetch me back on bukittinggi road, saw ppl's car kena saman.hoho

vinkong : police cari makan now
wengsoon : aaa. those behind, wear safety belts ar..if not

at the same time, got 1 police car behind us and 1 myvi infront of us.
we were SHOCK man..

bea : OMGOMG POLICE POOLICE HOW HOW HOW
wengsoon : just relax okay relax......
bea : okok

den police car beside us

bea : eh howww how how how ??
vinkong : haha that myvi car sure kena la
wengsoon : maybe oso
zhi : how how how

den suddenly.

police : *flash lights*
myvi : *signal*
police : *signal*

den,

vinkong : AHHAHA tio bagua liao tio liao tio liao YESS AR !!!
wengsoon : HAHAHAHAH KENA SAMAN !
zhi : HAHAHAHAH
bea : HAHAHAHA lucky not us wei

den all of a sudden in coincidence,

vinkong & me : TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT ! HAHAHAHAHAHA
everyone : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT !
vinkong : waa thi beyonce very good at singing ar.. so gam sing "to the left to the left"

LMAOROLFLOL. we were lauging like fuckkkkk. its dma funny.
this is what i like, everytime talking bout saman, we were go like...

anonymous : this week hor. dam suay la. kena bahgua 3 times. "to the left to the left!" 3 times.cb

LMAOROFLOL. seewhat i mean ?
oh well. when seeing the myvi kena saman,thats the only time i laughed like hell, i was so fucking emo til i dint talk at all and all was surprise i said "to the left to the left" and actually laughing my ass off.

wee~ goodtimes !

sheeeeshaaaa.

i was awake till 6am blogging bout my days. bea stayed over and she also brought her lappy over.
we both slept at 6 == nabeh.
woke up at uhhh. 11 kot. or 12 ? dah lupe.
went online awhile while my sis was watching the tele.

bout 2 something we left the house to pyramid. zijing,brian was waiting for us. at the same time, afiq too was waiting for us. there. muaahaahha.
bump into afiq.had lunch at Wendy's. den jing and brian came.
blablabla, they both chao and my sis oso went.
left me bea zhi and afiq there ==
quite bored la today. afiq intensions are to watch movie. he dint slep the whole night just because he was up havig his movie marathon == i think its his hobby or something. hmm
cinema was too pack so fuckit la. don wan watch already.
so we go sheeshaaa ;D hoho. not that nice la the sheesha there. don like it.
blablabla. we got bored.
i always bring decks of cards along with me to play when im bored :D
we played chodaidi at first. later tat we played this lying game where you have to lie.
afiq noobie at it,he just learn it. but...

afiq : what the heck la.
bea : your suppose to lie fiq, LIE
afiq : i dont lie,i don know how to lie....
bea : slowly laaa LOL

few rounds later

bea : * dont know face wether to open or not face*
bea : *opens*
bea : dangg !
Afiq : AHA.
chie : waa fiq. dah pandai laa ko. hoho
afiq : 8smiles htere*

went back bout 5 i guess. afiq dint followed us back. he wasnt satisfied so he went for a movie himself.
LONER SIAL == he always have this thing between movies. dnt unerstand it too

us : what movie you wanna watch?
afiq : anything la
us : yourthe man, you decide!
afiq : got tamil movie ar ?
us : WHAT ? TAMIL MOVIE ? why on earth you wanna watch a tamil movie for ? dam random wei you
afiq : i dont know ? something random la..

yeah his weird. meehh.
but his awesome.
still wondering does he rare a dog or not O_O since his a malay. a cool 1 hoho.

my other half.

awwww :')

I LOVE YOU TOO BEATRICE CHIN ! <3

my bestfriend,

my twin,

MY SISTER.

i love my mom and dad.

i am dam....
hope less okay.
i dont know what else to do. i need advise from everyone ! please help me.

my dad has nose cancer stage 3, my mom quit her job cause she wasnt getting her pay at all.
am fucking depress.
i need help.
thanks to bea and zhi, they was chilling me down.

and AZZAT THE KOTE too for, trying. appreciated.

and also josh my brother! for calling and caring. appreciated it too.

and uhh, asyraf,for trying. appreciated it too.

SAYANGGGGG THE ALL OF YOU,well,only 5 ppl tried..love you guys to bits !

so, if theres anything you want to tell me wha to do,i can try,i dont mind.
i just need help,





HELP ME PLEASE ?

i gues im te second loh pin.

rawr. i missy himm.
im happy yet, upset. i dont know why.

its like, im dying inside. his murdering me.
it just does.


adeh. how laaaa..... ==

anyway, i have more thingsto worry about. coming up the next post.

gabs are anoyying!

i had a trip to melaka with mummy karen and daddy pakcik ? HAHAH sounds wrong.
had fun anyway.

stayed at SERI KOTA HOTEL

at night, went to this family club, RALLY CLUB. it was awesome.its like a real club for loud music,lesser people and dude, its a freaking FAMILY CLUB, no age limits ==

we were the only girls dancing on th dance floor :D it was fun! but it wasnt till some chibai dudes come asking

man : eh my friend wana know you can ar ?

me : no? *FUCK OFFFFFFFF*

RETARDATION 101

hoho. OURS !

later that, we went back down with family and friends :D

chibai == wheres my kiss lak?

"cekik ko!"

lovely family :D

me, daddy,mummy,zhi(top),bea :D

haha yeah.my goddaddy its a malay but i call him pakcik HAHAHAH :P his awesome! not like any other malays!

thats why i feel like i have a lil malay thing in me == rawr!

fuckyou racist bastard :D

AWWW ! DAM CUTE RIGHT

pakcik's friend

went back hotel bout 12 somethgn to 1. me and bea and zhi got the whole room toourself :D

we dint sleep the whole night, we were up singing and playing cards :D till 6 den decide to sleep. over slept, suppose to wake upat 8 but we woke up at10 LOL breakfast oso finish HAHA

later in the noon, after lunch, went to this menara thingy. itsfun :D

line took us forever==

fulamak! gayaa...

zhi and bea :D

me and bea :D

*take 1* ouuuuu.....

*take 2* EEEEEEE....

*take 3* ahhhhh.....

bea and me

awww. pakcik and aunty AHHAHA

high up in the sky :D

im always in the middle ==

mahkote parade HAHA

levis!

chibai...where the hell is my kiss la nabeh...

alwaysmiddle!

i got raped D: *zhi;s face like pontianak sial,with her pontianak fingers WTF*

opps?

HAHAH COPY CAT!

simply bea (:

MELAKAA!

sunshine babes!

take 1

take 2

*they are suppose to be a jump shot pic* EPIC FAILED! AHAHA

photography by yinzhi

photography by helyna

finally im done. took me frevr to update my post oaky == rawr.

we reach homebout 11 something. took us 5 hours to reach back klang. its dam jam wei ==

but we werent stuck in the jam la LOL we were having out feast :D while pakcik friends stuck in the jam HAHA evil !

in the car, we wre rollig here and there. cause its a wining road == every 5 secs *weee!left* *weeee! right* == anoyying. and im sitting in the middle, they both kemek me like fuckkkk!

oh and btw, I GOT FUCKING RAPED IN THE BACKSEAT by bea and zhi. imma sue the heck out of them ! muaahahahha