ill never be strong enough

im not comparing whose life is much more suckier then mine.
but honestly, I AM VERY STRESS OUT. I ALWAYS GET SO TENSION. ALWAYS ! and then depressions hits me. really hard

try watching your dad crying in pain.
try looking at your own parents when they take out their wallets
try waking up so fucking early morning and your mom starts talking about how sick your dad really is
try not to think wether your dad can live long or not
try to think everything for you dad
try not to forget your mom
try keeping your family A FAMILY;

i am dam stress up okay. i cant take seeing my own parents are like that every morning. thats not a way to make my day...
i get all depress and stress like fuck when my mom wakes me up and starts talking to me everything.

mom : your dad doesnt even dares to sleep now,you know that ?
me : *stones*

i dont know what to do. i tried crying but i cant and i dont know why. WHY LA WHY
i may look really happy outside,but hell there is alot of shit going on in my head that you never expect that ill have those thoughts.


i might as well just die.
screw life wei. screw god wei. screw everyone la



feel like lending a shoulder to me now ?